Sunday, 11 March 2012

New start

Well folks, it's been a bit of a roller coaster ride the last few months. I've been flaring for a few months now. Fibromyalgia has had me in it's grips for far too long.

Two weeks ago I went through detoxing from Dihydrocodeine which was not pleasant by any means. Withdrawal symptoms were dreadful. Ranging from Sweats, Palpitations, Severe Pain like I've never had before. But it was worth it all. I'm now taking 20mcg Butrans patch which works by slowly administering the drug through the skin roughly ever hour. You've no idea how much better I feel on a much more stronger painkiller that doesn't knock me out. I was completely painfree yesterday for two wonderful hours. Anyone who has fibro will know how that amazing that is. Those who live with this dreadful condition or disease, syndrome? You will understand how being almost pain free is a new lease of life.

2011 is a year I wouldn't like to live again. I've been betrayed, lied to, and deceived by one person. I cannot even discuss that or go there. You don't expect family to do that but hey ho.

The family war has now been sorted. It's been clear, all this viciousness is a result of a particular person who thought it was ok to do that. I had my sister and mother taken away from by lies. My children had their Grandmother and Aunt, Uncle and cousins taken away from them. That person responsible, possibly hadn't thought of the impact of their actions inflicted on other people.

People come and go in our lives yet there are those, who are so manipulative they will stop at nothing to hide their lies. I refuse to be treated like shit. I refuse to be fed bullshit. I refuse to listen to anymore tales of how crappy their lives are, which are their own doing. That's why they are no longer in my life now. It was such a relief to walk away from it all. I have enough to deal with in my own life.

I'm back in the studio today just playing, making beads.


1 comment:

  1. Hi, well you back ...
    Let's progress in ideas, new life now, good thoughts, joy in heart.
    A hug.